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The  main reason y i startd venting........i wud call it venting even if its happpy ocasn, neway , is bcoz it stuff to say everythng 2 eevry1. Th eday startd LATE ya i got up late as i slept wayyyyyy late. i hav estopped crying and started thinking wich is way worse.wen i cired i slept sooner dan i cud think and process all the stupid thos.neway went shopping wid lik nocahs but then had to tolearte the holier than thou atttiude of a girl i really liked.she is conservative but gobbles pot beef booze lik a maniac.wonder wat dat makes her.at least my bff is way cooler dan dat.she has her habits bt i lov her as she judges no1 and dts how we shud b.ya i judge a hell lot bt at least i dnt MAKE ppl THINK d way I think do i ? or do i ?ya i bitch lik a crazy bitch and i kno dt ut hey i aint hurting no1.as long as ppl dnt kno it.even here i dnt use names as ppl myt here or see stuff and thngs wil b too messy 2 dealw id.i wudnt care if ppl kno wat i thnk bt d apology shit is wat i hate.99 out of 100 tyms i dnt care abt sayng soryy...i jst say it.

boo was and is sad and so am i.i dunno wat wil happn but i refuse 2 liv wiodut him.he is my bkbone.and i hope i am his.i shall talk text skype and do everythng in my power but i wont abk down.not so easily.but i will pray tooo.i blv in HIM and HIS capabilities more dan us mere mortals and i hope HE can make it happen if HE  wants to.

even tho i didnt shop much , it was fun 2 bitch and babble lik 16yr olds wid my bff.i hope d date wid my oder bff goes as plannd if nt bettr.the sad part didnt even get noticed till i waved her goodbye.dats wen it hit me leaving aside all poslities we might NEVER MEET.i dunno wt wil happen but i again leave it 2 God.only he can do sumthng abt everything and yet be the silent frnd we alll have but wish to ignore til we hav sumthg worthwhile 2 ask for.i thnk him as much as i can but its never enuff.

VENTING TODAY

ya u got dat ryt.i m venting here and you might not be able to make ehad or tail of it.i shall explain if i feel like but frankly my dear i dont give a damn.there was time when i cared what pppl think but anonymity is like a drug.i might seem to be babbling listlessly but as they say you never know when you might strike a chord.fb and twitter cant b my tools to vent as ppl babble a lot abt what they think.and since i dnt care i cn babble away here widout being stopped.you can babble in the comments but my thots wont change.

AM TORN

I dunno what to do. I do know actually but there is this feeling that is making me sick to the stomach.I have never traveled alone and doing it is hard.I wish I didnt have to leave my family behind.Its tuff enuff to do it all alone but to think that am ruining my love for my career is worse.Yes I want to be with him all night and day but we both need to venture outside your zone of comfort to do what we need to do.I am psyched to be able to study abroad.My parents are the best in the world but why does it have to happen at the cost of being separated from them ? I am scared that once I land in USA I might not want to go bavk and then what ? I becum a loner in a place where I dont have any loved ones.I cant come to terms with leaving kolkata.Its the place where my roots are. I need to discover myself so I have no regrets but its hard on me.I cry and I scream out at times but there has been no respite lately.It all seems like ablur.Last meetings make me feel like am dying. The day I had my admit I was psyched but there was ahollow in my throat.i knew my days are numbered in India. The scholarshop was the iciing on the cake :). But then it had a nasty price. However i cnt complain now.I chose dis and i wanted only dis and my parents are proud but then again so am i.dere are ppl who are trying to ruin it but all i have to say is hey am not spending my dads money am i ? but u r..........daddys' little girl has grown up and she knows her responsibilities.